The Risk

Have you ever had someone come into your life, and completely change the way you look at life? You see things differently when you're around them. It’s as if their very presence is a light in all of the darkness that is around you.  The way that this person can make you feel is beyond words. No matter how hard you try to explain the way you feel, it’s like the words refuse to come out. Then again even if the words did come, would it even matter ?

Maybe it would, but your too afraid to speak. You're too afraid to let them know how your feeling, because you don't know the response you would get back. Even if you did get a good response, the universe would find a way to mess it all up. Take a look around you, everything is falling down like a bunch of dominoes, one by one . So you keep your feelings locked up inside your heart. You chain it inside the box, every emotion, every feeling, you push it away.

If you were to even allow yourself to feel all of what was inside that box, it would make it real. The last thing that you want is for that feeling to become real, because that would make you vulnerable. That means that you're allowing yourself to feel something that you don’t want to feel. something you don’t believe exists.  Maybe you're making the wrong decision, but you don’t even care.

Yeah, it’s a confusing feeling, a complicated feeling, an indescribable feeling. The one thing about this feeling is even though you know it's a wrong feeling, you still want so bad to feel it. It’s like you're on this diet, and there is this delicious slice of cheesecake sitting on a plate. Now you know you're not supposed to have the cheesecake, but it just looks so good.  You know that it's going to taste amazing, but you also know if you even take one bite of it, you're going to want to devour the whole entire thing.

Than you’ve cheated on your diet, and it goes straight down the toilet. The minute you had that cheesecake you can’t resist it anymore, you just keep coming back for more.  And you're not sure if you're ready to take that chance, to risk everything that you’ve put the effort into building up. But maybe, just maybe you're willing to take that risk, and that scares you more than you anything.